Fears:

1. SIDS
2. autism (2 nieces and a nephew are autistic.)
   
   
3. going back to work.





4. not going back to work, and becoming a hermit instead.





5. never losing my baby fat.





6. losing my individuality.





7. not enjoying life due to stress.
   

on a brighter note: violet smiled her first real smile yesterday! she's done it dozens of times since and it is precious.

also, today is my mom's birthday. i didn't get to go see her but she did like the flowers i had sent. violets of course!